1 post tagged “birthday”
It's kind of strange that I don't really have any idea on what to get- it's strange because I used to know him so well. However after the incident that happened last year, I really haven't found any ground with him. Do not get me wrong. I love him and I would die for him, but he really has grown away from the family. He spends most of his time at his girlfriend's house or at his mates. We barely see him at home and when I do see him, it's always late at night, like he's just walked in or passing through.
My brothers and I used to be so close. We used to do everything together. Get dragged out to filipino parties, visits to the library, rent out movies, walks, play computer/video games, read books- all that stuff. But we all grow out of it I guess and seeing as now I am 21 I shouldn't expect him to think any of that is fun now. I know what it's like to start to like different things. Although I still like those things.
I know John likes parties. Girls (duh). Smoking and Drinking. He's 17 too and feels he's old enough to do all that and maybe throw in some drugs to boot. However there is no way I am contributing to that part of his life on his birthday. I don't buy his cigarettes (we've had many fights over this), I don't purchase alcoholic drinks for him nor would I even throw in money for a herpes infested prostitute.
I remember there was a time where John would draw a lot and he used to be so good. I even bought him a Manga technique drawing book with a set of quality drawing pencils and an art pad. However at that time he was playing the drums with his mates and couldn't care for them, I could tell.
He doesn't play the drums anymore, for that would have been an ideal career for him, a musician. However that all went down hill when the drum kit he was using was returned to it's owner. Now I don't even know if he even still dabbles with music making. *shrugs*
I guess on Monday on my break I could go up town and deposit some money on a new drum kit. But I don't think he would continue paying off such an expensive musical item. Maybe all I should give him is money? Maybe that would be a lot more simple, but I'd feel like shit because that's not like me at all. I try my best to get gifts and not just money. To me it's a little impersonal and I don't want to resort to it just because I haven't made an effort. He is my brother after all and I should try a little bit harder, no matter what phase he's currently going through.
